Keeping up with random stuff.

Yesterday, I noticed two strands of eyelashes on my cheek...

So I guess there are at least 2 people that miss me right? :P

I wonder why the people that I miss still have eyelashes...not enough thought, maybe?

Keeping up with myself.

A note to myself:


Kalau orang dah bagi tu...jangan lah bising-bising!!!


tak berniat untuk mengguris hati sesiapa. Sangat menghargai pemberian yang ikhlas dari hati...Selamat Hari Raya,Maaf Zahir dan Batin.

Keeping up with emotions.

Just let time heal everything ~

Keeping up with graduation I.

I'm still here in Urbana-Champaign but I already miss a lot of things, here! A few days ago, I saw one of my friends registered for his classes next semester. 

• I miss reading reviews at ratemyprofessors.com
• I miss comparing time tickets, seeing who gets to register the earliest
• I miss refreshing UI Integrate every 10 seconds to see if there is any opening in the class that I'm interested in
• I miss asking people to take the same class with me

In a few weeks time, I'll miss everything about U of I, CU, IL  and the states.

Keeping up with chances.

I totally fucked up my second chance!
Why is it so hard for me to learn from past mistakes?
F***,F***,F***
At this point, I deserve to be hated, to be shunned and to be friendless, because all the things I do will eventually hurt the people around me.
What people told me a few years ago was true after all- I don't deserve to have friends.
Probably apologies no longer work right now because a lot of it have been said and maybe you think it is meaningless, but trust me, I do mean it.
From the bottom of my heart, I genuinely hope to have one LAST chance to make things better.

I'm Sorry~

Keeping up with my new blog.

Hello friends,

This is my millionth attempt to write a post and yes, this is a new blog. I've already changed the link of the old blog, but probably you could find it easily. Too bad its still in private mode :P. 

Anyway, I'll try to update as 'frequent' as possible, probably once a week or a month, maybe?

At this moment, graduation is only a step away and so much has happened in the past few months. I've felt the worst depression ever in my life, but thanks to my best friends, I'm getting better.

Probably in the first few months, the posts are gonna be emotional-ish because like I said before, graduation is approaching really fast and also because of a friend that I always worry about for being too angelic and overused by people.

I guess that is all for my first post. Do tune in next time. :)

Safwan